If I suddenly became rich, or even got, like, a thousand bucks, I would buy every single dress on this website: http://www.modcloth.com/

Seriously, look.









THESE ARE ADORABLE. I never ever wear dresses but I really like buying them. :|

Question: Where is Zach taking me?
ZSG does this thing where he surprises me. You'll recognize this tactic from That Time He Took Me To NYC As A Surprise And It Fucking Rocked. :D
Tomorrow he's taking me somewhere! He won't say where. I haven't, like, asked him outright what we're doing. But I've got some clues. 

Research Sources: mlb.mets.com--> Citi Field A-Z, Mets game schedule

Evidence:
-Mostly outdoors
-Varied eateries there
-Me: "Have you been there before?" Him: "cough"
-It would suck if it was raining, which it probably will be :(
-He just told me he was lying about everything he's hinted at
-He says we'll be back pretty late
-He is picking me up pretty early
-Him: "IT IS CHEAP AND NECESSARY"
-Him: "Welp, you can't back out of it now"

My hypothesis, which is really just more like wishful thinking: NYM vs. SLC @CitiField.

ZSG has said he wanted to do this later in the summer and take me along. Last week, I let him know that I wouldn't be able to go on the date that he'd set, tentatively. So...maybe he just snatched this up. I mean, cheap seats are less than twenty bucks, and we'd have to leave pretty early to get to Queens by 7, and we'd obviously be back late. I checked out CitiField and they have sushi, Italian, and a fries-only place, all of which he specified. Then he said "It's a big place---I MEAN SMALL PLACE. IT'S A PLACE." Aww. Trying to cover up. The "cough" thing? He's been to Shea, but not Citi Field. So teeeechnically, he's been to a Mets game, but not at the new park. Obviously, it's mostly outdoors. Obviously, as an American, it's necessary for me to see a ball game. I've never been to one before! And if he's got tickets, I can't back out, because that's just dick.

Okay. Okay. So, that's it. Tomorrow is the experiment, obviously. If I'm wrong, which I may well be, I will be disappointed, but I psyched myself up for it.

buh huh huh i really hope i really hope. The fries-stand thing is, like, my most solid piece of evidence.

ZSG: I've got a playlist for the drive, too. It's got Beck on it.
Me: Is the song "Loser"? (because, let's face it, THE METS.)
ZSG: What? No. It's E-Pro.

also we're driving so seriously what the fuck who drives to fucking queens i mean jesus fuckface christ

if i die because of his driving...tell...tell toasty, tara, nikki, kat, and alex i love them

AND BLAIR WE  CANNOT FORGET BLAIR

LOOK LOOK I GOT A SUICUNE

To all the seniors who keep asking me why I won't go to prom:
I don't want to. I just don't. Is that a good enough reason for you?
LEAVE
ME
ALONE.

I have to put up with limo, dress, and after-party talk for another two months AND THEN IT IS DONE, and no one will bug me about prom ever again.


I wish they'd stop.

(also if you comment on this saying "omg go to prommm! it's soooo fun lol" I will reach through the computer screen and stab you.)

So, because of this whole anemia deal, I have to alter my diet. Less crap, more iron. Unfortunately, I am not in charge of what I get to eat, although I have a lot of choice--but ultimately, I don't get to choose when we have steak. And when we do have steak, I don't get to choose how well done it is. (They make it almost bloody. I like it burnt to a crisp.)

Sure, I'll be grabbing broccoli whenever I can, but there's other things I have to eat, too. Wikipedia (Yeah, I know, not accurate and shit, but here was the scene: There was 3 minutes of internet left, I was sobbing because my parents pretty much diagnosed me and didn't explain anything, and the freshmen were beating each other up. SO FORGIVE ME FOR USING WIKIPEDIA JUST THIS ONCE.) suggested Vitamin C.

This is what I ate today, trying to alter my eating habits slightly: Nothing for breakfast. (When I'm not at home, I don't eat breakfast. This is usually because the dining hall is drowning in the smell of eggs, and I'm too sickened to even think about eating. If I'm really, really zealous, though, or if they have Rice Krispies, I'll eat.) For lunch, I had orange juice (Vitamin C, see?), mashed potatoes, and beets. I put a slice of roast beef on my plate, but it was one of the more unappetizing things I've seen lately, so I let it be.

Afterwards I went to my room and had some Nutella. I'm a fucking idiot, yeah, but hey, I'm an idiot who likes chocolate. And hazelnut. In one convienient spread.

Coach doesn't care what I have as long as I can play. (Not like I start or anything.)

That's it for now, I think. I'm going out to the field half an hour early just so I can lay in the sun and eat seeds, despite it being like 30 degrees out. I am tenacious.

(This is my first un-FO'd post in a couple months. I did this so people other than Ginger and Tara and Regan can see what I'm writing. Slightly nervous.)

RIPPED OUT THE MITTENS

I WAS SO FAR ALONG, TOO

T____T

Started again on smaller needles, though. It rose from the ashes.

Dress rehearsal was....not...good. I was trying to memorize my lines but there was a freaking CHAMBER ORCHESTRA in the theater so I was extremely interested in that and not at all interested in my lines. :|
I think sleeping on them has helped, though. Helped a lot. I've got the bus ride to Tenafly and then two hours of rehearsal to get it right.

I didn't work on lines last night after practice. Instead I finished Girls' Town (so much scat) and got a phone call at 2 am from a guy looking for Rick.

RIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIICK

So I'm in Tenafly til like 5. That'll be...fun. /coughNOTREALLYcoughcough

This has been in my head all day: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=H7fKab9XpW0

And this is what comes of it: crappy drawing WOOOO
http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v426/inluvwithodd/IMGP0049.jpg

So, before Affinities class today, Kate comes running up to me, saying "OMG YOUR ADVISOR IS LOOKING FOR YOU!!! SHE SAID SHE'S COMING TO FIND YOU!!!"
Well, my advisor is also the twelfth grade dean. I had legitimate reason to be SCARED OUT OF MY MIND.
When she did show, she pulled me out of class into the (ungodly) cold and said, "Anne went home sick."

See, my advisor is ALSO my theatre director.
And we have a huge symphony/acting/dance thing to perform tomorrow.
I'm not in it, but one of the two roles, Anne, was puking all last night (I know this because I live across from the bathroom, yuuuck).

So, uh, I'm the Devil now. That was her part.

It is a shit-ton of lines.

Dress rehearsal in 2 hours.

I am screwed.

Here is a word I like:

Kick.

Use it in a sentence? Okay.

I'm gonna kick your butt.
His hair kicks up at his forehead and it's sort of sexy.
You know that kick the guitar does after the second pre-chorus of "Martian Girl"? ....You don't? You're missing out!
I'm on an MST3K kick.

Yeah, it's a good word. Because, uh...
I threaten to kick people's butts a lot,
ZSG's hair actually does this and it is hot,
I could listen to that kick again and again,
and I watch that show in place of friends :/

No, I do have friends, really. And--HOLY SHIT THAT WHOLE THING JUST RHYMED

HOW DID I NOT SEE THAT

Haha, wow. That....is pretty weird. Maybe it's because I'm trying to read Medea right now?

Alex and I have been drawing MST3K stuff for each other because I am absolutely obsessed now. I will not deny it. Here is a sample of my drawing and also all my little practice sketches:

HEY LOOK, A URL
Disclaimers: Crow at bottom left has a too-short headpiece thing. :'[


img.photobucket.com/albums/v426/inluvwithodd/IMGP0044.jpg


Thanks to kataoi for thinking of a URL because I'm really so stupid that I wouldn't think of that. Yay!

Okay I admit I have a problem BUT JUST LOOK AT 2:25 IT IS THE CUTEST THING IN THE ENTIRE FUCKING WORLD

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=crMsiC8amGE&feature=PlayList&p=EF99F014D505E9D4&index=2

I have no idea how to hyperlink :[

TEN HOWS:

How did you get one of your scars?
Big one on my face from surgery when I was 2. This mole grew roots all over my face and they had to rip it out!

How often do you see your best friend?
Every day, she lives in the room next to me!

How did you celebrate your last birthday?
Gave a speech in the morning, saw my family and boyfriend at night.

How are you feeling at this moment?
Annoyed. Youtube AND Homestar Runner aren't working. Ugh, what do I watch?!

How did your night go last night?
Had Adlibbers practice, watched Chowder with Kate, watched half of MST3K (Space Mutiny). 

How did you get the shirt you're wearing?
Caldwell hoodie came from Caldwell College.

How much money did you spend last month?
Uhhhh, a lot? IT WAS CHRISTMAS SHUT UP

How old do you want to be when you get married?
I dunno. Between 24 and 28.

How old are you?
18

How old will you be in 3 years?
21. I'll be oh so legal but it just won't matter.


NINE WHAT'S:

What's your mothers name?
judi

What are you wearing?
Rain boots, jeans, school oxford, Caldwell hoodie, orange hat with earflaps that I love but did not make. D:

What would you rather be doing?
WATCHING A THING.

What always makes you feel better when you’re upset?
Talking to ZSG or playing piano. Usually just being by myself.

What are you worried about?
Nothing at the moment. Wow.

What did you have for breakfast?
Nothing! Yaaaay.


EIGHT HAVE YOU’S:

Have you ever liked someone who had a girlfriend/boyfriend?
Possibly?

Have you ever had your heartbroken?
Sure.

Have you ever been out of the country?
Switzerland, whee!

Have you ever done something outrageously dumb?
of course, i am beth.

Have you ever been back stabbed by a friend?
Oh, middle school.

Have you ever dated someone younger than you?
Zach is ten months younger than me. Ooh, I'm a cougar!

Have you ever read an entire book in one day?
I can read several books in a day.

Have you ever snuck out?
Nope. Nothing to sneak out for.


SEVEN WHO’S:

Who was the last person to text you?
My dad. :P

Who was the last person you hungout with?
Zach!

Who were you last annoyed with?
Freshmen, probably.

Who was the last person to call you?
Uhhhh....no one's called me on my new phone yet...

Who did you last hug?
Kate.

Who of the opposite sex do you care a lot about?
ZSG. :D

Who did you last say "i love you" to?
Ashley? Or Kate.


SIX WHERE’S:

Where does your best friend live?
Next door to me!/in Maplewood.

Where did you last go?
Home....while at home, the AT&T store.

Where is your bestfriend?
Next door.

Where do you go to school?
Boarding school in western NJ.

Where is your favorite place to be?
In my room, alone, or with my boyfriend, or at home, or in the Carney Center.


FIVE DO’S/DOES:

Do you like someone right now?
Yes yes a thousand million times yes

Do you think anyone likes you?
I've got a notion

Do you ever wish you were someone else?
Not in the least. I've wanted to be with ZSG for a long time and I'm so excited we're together. Still.

Does the future scare you?
No, it excites me!


FOUR WHY’S:

Why are you best friends with your best friend(s)?
She's perky in all the right ways and has the same general sense of humor as me.

Why did you get a myspace?
Well, I don't use it anymore, but I got one in 2005 because lil' ZSG had one! Huh!

Why are you doing this survey
Secretly, they're fun.


THREE IF’S

If you could have one super power what would it be?
I always flip-flop between invisibility and flying. Both are so great. I'd be able to fly to S-Field from Pottersville and meet with my lover in a secret midnight setting...or I'd be able to sneak out and jack a car. :P

If you could go back in time and change one thing, would you?
See, here's the thing. I want to say "I would make sure Mr. T. never got fired" but then where would I be? Would it alter a whole bunch of events? Would I be the happy girlfriend of today? The MST3K lover of today? The accepted-to-Kean person of today?

I wouldn't change anything, because I like this, but I'd like to see what would happen. Like, A -Christmas-Carol-type thing. Or It's a Wonderful Life.

If you were stranded on a deserted island & could bring one thing what would you bring?
A...a boat.

Would you ever shave your head to save someone you love?
Uhhhhhh...how does that work?


ONE LAST QUESTION

Are you happy with your life right now?
Yes, yes, yes. =D

Re: my poll: YOU ARE WRONG. Mike is the better host.



AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAGH

FUCK

FUCK

FUCK


I HAD THIS GIGANTIC POST WITH A PHOTO OF MY NEW PHONE AND MST3K GEEKINESS AND TIME-PLAYLISTS AND A SURVEY

BUT I PRESSED BACKSPACE AND APPARENTLY THAT MEANS "PAGE BACK" AND NOW I HAVE NOTHING

JE N'AI PAS RIEN

it was a good post, too

Poll #1328288 THE BETTER HOST
Open to: All, detailed results viewable to: All, participants: 4

WHO is the better MST3K host?

ANSWER WITH CAUTION
Also don't check both, 'cause that be douchebaggery and I want a real answer :/

I was thinking about stuff and then out of nowhere it hit me.

I'm in love.

I'm not going to deny it anymore. I was scared to earlier, because I thought he'd be all wishy-washy like he usually was and randomly say "this was fun but yeah not anymore". But, uh, it's been six months, and it's been pure awesome, and I'm in love.

Yay!

"Miss Blacktop" came up on shuffle a few minutes ago and it was like POW. It was like I had been knocked to the ground and when I opened my eyes,  I was looking up to the brightest blue sky and I could hear balls hitting gloves and Mr. T's laughter and I could smell the spring breeze coming down from the mountains and I was wearing cleats and everything good, everything perfect was in the harmonies. It was amazing. It was spring again! Spring 2008, before anything bad happened.

And then I blinked, and I was back in the drafty library, in 2009, on a day where it is most certainly going to snow, wearing mary janes instead of cleats and shivering, surrounded by freshmen and very much Mr. T-less.

And that's why I love this song. It transports me.

I categorize all my music by when I listened to it overandoverandover. Others from my Spring 08 list--

Timebomb--Beck (Reminds me of watching the Parkway rush by on the way to a game.)
Body Body-- CSCN (And suddenly I'm back in 3rd period Seminar with my old music teacher and I was never doing my homework but listening to this music.)

nothing else good.
Maybe I'll share some more of my time-period playlists.

External assets, actually. I would hand over my boobs the minute someone asked for them. I don't want them anymore

please

take them